Friday, June 01, 2007
@ 8:43 PM
for those still wondering... i've in a sense officially closed down this blog. the archives are still there for memories' sakes. but yea, i'm closing down this blog.i'm sry to have had to leave on such a sour note, but ohwell... life goes on!
thanks for having visited.
Thursday, May 03, 2007
@ 10:51 PM
PERFECT. PERFECT. EVERY ONE OF YOU CHOSE THE PERFECT DAY TO SCREW ME UPSIDE DOWN INSIDE OUT. I TRIED DAMMIT I TRIED. DONT FAULT ME FOR THAT. I TRIED. DONT PUSH ME BEYOND MY LIMIT I TELL YOU. I'M BREAKING DOWN. LONGKUAN CAN TESTIFY TO TT. DONT PUSH ME PLEASE...
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
@ 9:14 PM
i dunno if i spent enuff time studying anot. i feel so accomplished, yet so... like er... stone? like i did nth liddat? ohwellztoday onli had 2 periods. chionged PW like mad to set things straight. i had 5 hrs, did a wee bit of phy, slept, slacked, etc. ohwell. muz smile! ppl ask me take a break. i super tired la.
been going thru lots of battles these few weeks. and the fact that i'm lazy doesnt help things. i'm feeling torn cos i ned to do work, but when i do work i always cant get this cant get tt. i've to face the fact that i'm onli here cos of some sheer luck and some hard work. but i dunno whether i'm working hard when i always can onli solve a few meagre qtns in a few hrs per time. and somehow here i feel as tho i cant ask anybody for help. i dunno.
sometimes i feel as tho rjc life is so fun, so vibrant. yet i know its onli cos of a few small factors. once these are removed, i'm gone. trying to branch out my life, but its very difficult, esp when i alrdy have these few deep main roots planted in them. and tt's why i always beg of them not to leave my life. ohwell...
these few weeks have been hard, but so has the past year plus. battle after battle, emotional beating after emotional beating, painful decision after painful decision. and i juz gotta stride on. (read the below post on my colourgenics thing) i cant give up, i cant back down, i can onli move forward. Onli God can always be there for me, yet sometimes i dont seek His help... wah biang
today exco result after exco result revealed. haha many of my frens have assumed various positions. congrats to them. for me... after 4yrs in the battlefield, it realli feels weird not being part of it. realli feels left out.
i feel like i'm treading super dangerous ground. PMEF (onli guy in RJC doing this combi), BB as my onli cca. and my friendship and all built upon very few ppl (i can count with my right hand). my onli prayer here is they'll nvr leave me. u know how much i depend on u guys. i tink u who read will know who u are la huh.
i better start reading PDL. been lagging like mad!eekz
i think i'm in deep shit. seriously. i landed myself in it. will see come end may if i realli do. sigh...
wat was it abt this blog supposedly having a makeover to be a happy one?
c'est un choix très difficile. comme aujourd'hui, même si je sais la verité, ou je pense que c'est la verité, c'est encore très difficile d'accepter ce qui c'est passé. je suis très fatigué, mais je sais aussi que je peux pas faillir. c'est ma obligation et il faut que je reussi. JE DOIS ETRE FORT! garghhhh
pourquoi? pourquoi? pourquoi pas?
set me free... someone set me free...
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
@ 2:06 PM
You are constantly hoping that your good fellowship and attitude and your 'love for your fellow man (or women)' will give you peace of mind. You need people - people around you to care for you and to show you that they care. It is this hope that keeps you going, the hope that makes you the type of person that indeed you are. Your own need for approval seemingly makes you always ready to help others and in exchange you seek love, warmth and understanding. You will always listen to others and you are open to new ideas which hopefully will prove fruitful and interesting.You are looking for excitement and stimulation and you are ready to try anything - but be careful not to take too many risks.
There are times of everyone's life when 'compromise' is the name of the game and this is the time, so you have no alternative but to forgo some pleasures for the time being. You are capable of achieving satisfaction through physical activity.
Your willpower and stamina are in danger of being overwhelmed by excessive stress. Your resilience and tenacity have become weakened. You are feeling overtaxed, worn out and getting nowhere: but you continue to stand your ground. You feel that this unfavourable situation is an encumbrance which you could well do without and you find yourself unable to make the necessary decisions at this particular moment in time to change anything.
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions are really beyond your capabilities. This has resulted in experiencing considerable anxiety and stress. You are looking for confirmation from your nearest and dearest that you have the ability and strength to fulfil all of your needs and to be completely self-sufficient.When matters don't go right for you - you tend to become inhibited and blame others for your inadequacy. You feel that there must be a way out from all the trials and tribulations that you have been experiencing of late and you are right - there is a solution - so don't give in, keep searching.
okie larh not 100% accurate, but some parts are realli very true... ohwell haha
Monday, April 30, 2007
@ 10:29 PM
things got off a lil rocky today, with me needing a lil help here and there, but yea i'm confident things are improving. i like that confidence i can feel, and i hope that you can too. i'm REALLY not used to seeing red instead of yellow. that familiar yellow and blue... ahhhhh please dont rob me off my memories and all... =(
pe was... bomb. i onli touched the ball once, and when i did i provided moments around my CG, and fell onto the floor. scraped both my arms. and a lot of mud. super wet eeyer... i find mr ortega opening up to our class. he's getting very very lame and funny! esp with tt stupid dog xD
played bball today after pe. part of my campaing to make my life less dependant on few factors. my first step was joining black belt :p
the talk felt good. i hope u're feling good abt it. i am. i will make sure tihngs turn out well! i'm waiting for tt lunch.
maybe i was too tired or sth, hardly did any work today. tried doing math. juz kept getting stuck, onli to find out later (longkuan helped me) that i missed out on the simplest details (eg GC radian mode, x value shd divide by 2)... crap la.
met up with cheeks and lk for dinner! subway, den went to cut my hair. ahh nice hairstyle again. not too short, onli trim a lil, and thin it. yay!
den bowled. wah lau i'm very pissed! THE LAST PIN ALWAYS CEASES TO FALL TO MAKE TINGS A STRIKE/ SPARE. in 2 games it happened at least 5 times. idiot leh =(
but fun! =D
ohwell, tml muz do phy le. i've been saying tt for how long eekz.
totally tired.
nite!
Sunday, April 29, 2007
@ 1:53 AM
Haha u guys must have realized that a lot of my posts are gone. I’ve decided, no point brooding and emoing myself away. No point. Thus my new blogskin too. Brighter, more cheerful, most optimistic!Anyway, i went to bed, and started brain gymming. And its kinda working. My emotions seem to be leaving me. I’m planting negative thoughts in my mind, and then beating them down hard. Its working! Some ppl insist its gonna be a tough road ahead. I don’t deny, but I do remember myself being very determined. And its gonna work.
I’ll make sure it works, and that’s thanks to ur affirmation on Friday nite. Why am I giving up the greater good juz for this small lil emotion inside me? Why am I hurting other(s)? for wat? No way. No way. It may not be an easy road ahead, but “when the going gets tough, the tough get going”. So there.
Give me a bit more time. I assure you success.
=)
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
@ 10:21 PM
+Rebel Pipers+"You can't judge others by their actions and judge yourself by your intentions"+creideamh... dóchas... gaol...+ says:i shall be a "lightbulb"
+Rebel Pipers+"You can't judge others by their actions and judge yourself by your intentions"+creideamh... dóchas... gaol...+ says:
hahaha
my reply:
FerrariYQ: [Rebel Pipers] i'm investing too much in too little... says:
can i turn you on then?
FerrariYQ: [Rebel Pipers] i'm investing too much in too little... says:
:D
OMG SOMEONE GIVE ME A WHEELCHAIR
@ 9:38 PM
I GOT THE FRENCH SCHOLARSHIP!!!!! SO DID SHAUNA AND JING PING AND SUJUN AND A FEW OTHERS!!! YAYY!!!
@ 8:30 PM
/linky\ says:we decided to take a stand
/linky\ says:
we koped one of those tables near our lodge
/linky\ says:
and claimed it as our own
my reply:
FerrariYQ: [Rebel Pipers] i'm investing too much in too little... says:
siao u wanna take a stand
FerrariYQ: [Rebel Pipers] i'm investing too much in too little... says:
den u take table to sit down
FerrariYQ: [Rebel Pipers] i'm investing too much in too little... says:
wat kind of STAND is that?
FerrariYQ: [Rebel Pipers] i'm investing too much in too little... says:
HAHA
HAHA indeed. nice one linky, to spark me off after a weird 3 hour nap amidst thunderous weather. HAHA!