Thursday, November 18, 2004
@ 8:50 PM
okok.... i'm controlling my temper. I'm not gonna use any vulgarities, gorilla mode is being denied by me. but i'm telling everyone i feel downright upset and disappointed. i dunno how to phrase this, i dun even noe how to type out this entry. let me give the scenario first. Last wk, the sec2s agreed that we'd be having LAN on tues. After training. told my cousin. he agreed. yes. it was postponed to fri due to bagpipe training. now's thurs. juz now during lunchtime, we all agreed to come down tml for LAN. i oredy new Geoff couldnt come. His mum wun allow. den JD told me his mum wun allow. Ya. Bo bian la. Now zach, who promised me he'd go, tells me he's not goin. staying at home. And YET AGAIN sets up a stipulation dat i gotta get JD and Geoff to go b4 he agrees to go. (u realise the absence of vulgarities) Lamzy is pending his decision. LK says he will go if invited. I'm not sure if he'll still go if he sees the pathetic turnout. And HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO ANSWER TO AMANDUS? (my cousin)
took so much discussion, some planning etc to get it going. Its been really diff to set up this kinda activity. now everyone's backing out. I dunno how to explain my feelings. to be honest, my blood is boiling. I'm having a kind of heated up feeling in me at this pt of time. I'm juz refraining from doing anything (like i said i muz try to "ren3") shd i juz wash my hands off everything? dat'd be denying responsibility. if i persist, i may juz burst. wat shd i do...???
he left a mark
