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mercy killing... the incident on the judge who sentenced a vegetable to death, realli touched me a lot...

that gal's been in hospital for 15 yrs. the hospital wants to take away her ICU equipment (aka letting her die), family dun want. go to court, judge rules in favour of hospital. that day i watched sadly as i saw her family giving her red wine to drink... as a farewell. HER EYES WERE STILL BLINKING... I COULD SEE THE RELUCTANCE AND FEAR IN HER EYES...

while we are preparing for the inagural AQ, this happens... we've got another quake with richter scale 8.7. 1000 dead. Dear Lord, i pray that even as you guide us in safety for AQ, You'll bless the world. with humanity, with love, with peace, with warmth...
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"Tragedy..." was the song i was listening to be BGs as i opened the web to find out the transition pts for AQ. Tragedy it was...

As if i'm not nervous enough, i was told bike transition pt is PAYAR LABA!!! den go SARIMBUN! SCREW!!! then team 3 transition pt it Petir Road.... bt panjang there! alamak. AQ is screwed manz... we struggling to find time for recce now... most prob wed. damn sian.

i've been tossing and turning in bed at nite, stimulating the start of AQ.... and i've never realli gotten thru it. i'm very scared that when i start, i would not perform, coz my team to lag behind everyone, and unable to catch up. i dunno, i noe i'm prepared, yet i'm scared i aint. i dunno. my team's all hyped up, all ready to go. all pumped. but i dun feel it. yes, i feel adrenaline, but its turning into hyper fear... mixed emotions.... i dunn wanna let 60th down like i did last BQ... i'm even turning superstitious for dat (Seoul Garden. XD) haiz... i need watever i can get to at least make everyone proud of 60th. to go there and FIGHT and tell them we aint no pushovers. WE'RE GONNA MAKE A STAND. ARGH!!!!!!!!

POWER TO TEAM 40, 112 and 915!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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that was inspiration. i have no idea how it came about, or when it came about. i juz knew that as i wrote it, i was dreaming...

...dreaming of the perfect evening, far away from disturbances, sitting along the coastline, with warm water trickling down the bare feet, when the gentleness and warmth of romance engulfs your body and enbodies your spirit, you could confess your love to someone... "i love you"...

"Can you feel the love tonight?
The peace the evening brings...
The world for once, in perfect harmony
With all its living things"

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There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
somehow you will
You will when you believe

-whitney houston and mariah carey

i find this song very insprational. wuz listening to it after coming back from AQ briefing, of which i learnt my team is starting first at NTU... all that hard work muz not come to waste. 2wks away... juz 2 more weeks...
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shag manz... throat destroyed from all the shouting, pimples growing like summer flowers coz din bathe, and my dad told me i slimmed down a lot when i came back... can imagine la.

i dun wanna tok abt wat happened in the camp, but juz my reflections on it... squad 6, like Isaac said to me, is a very diverse squad. ppl come with different thoughts, different personalities, different views on everything. thus, its very difficult to actualli get them together. this camp is unique in that the physical factor is just right, but it actually teaches u wat u realli need to learn and develop. and that's exactly wat i've done. definately the Amazing Race is the peak of it all. But i think tat everything as a whole led me to develop my leadership abilities and try my styles out. i totally agree with wat my snrs have taught me. its not whether i encourage anot, its whether i sound encouraging. its not whether i lead anot, but if each member in the team leads the whole squad together. its not if we can, its if we want to.

hey guys from squad 6, if u're reading this, i'm very sorri if i realli sounded harsh and very hierarchical. i was realli battling my emotions, diverse opinions and logic. ya, i'll definately listen to everyone more. please gif me some time to change for the better.

i feel tat i've definately improved. not so discreet, not so vulgar (er hem), not so selfish. i juz need to improve on it more and i believe with time, it'll improve. i have to be more open to ideas, and not contradict or resist ideas from other squad-mates. if need be, i needa explain more on why i made the decision not to do wat they requested.

realli wanna thank my whole squad for the excellent lessons we learnt with each other. and special thanks to Samuel and Marvin for keeping the whole squad's spirits up when it was low. i'm sorri i couldn't do it. juz din noe how to boost squad morale... and definately Long Kuan and Isaac, for guiding the whole squad all the way and using the camp as a pointer to help me improve.

this camp, although not physically challenging, was mentally challenging. its one i'll never forget. one very important point is:

IT'S NOT WHO'S THE LEADER, BUT IF EVERYONE IN THE GROUP IS A LEADER.
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wah lau... my consent form for overnite mock AQ realli came true... it stated 12/3/05 instead of 11/3/05-12/3/05. lamzy's team abidde came in at 12.30... 4hrs for 15km... w/o xiong navi... haiz... nvm. Repairing bikes was damn FUN!!! Guys who saw me pumping air know y rite??? HAHA!!! den went to name our bikes after chio bus! (or supposedly chio bus... dunno) CHERYL!!! (mine) CHERRY!!! (long-ge) EMILYN! (Zach) JACQUELINE (jappy) lol! went to classroom to wait for lamzy's team to arrive. wanna sleep oso cannot. dozing off den suddenly someone can shout or sing damn loud den wake me up. wah liaoz... argh... tot that AQ's basic discipline was lacking at that point la... seriously. tot the mock AQ for my team would be shyt... well... sorri la!

passing on of equipment was lag. helmet too tight, Jacqueline's brakes not working etc. den started off. From RI to Sembawang. wah lau. OWNS MANZ! we were cycling so fast to the pt where i put my gear at highest and was thinking "how come the pedals like so loose?" and reaching Sembawang in 1hr7min. BEAT THAT (well, we'll beat it in AQ) yio chu kang to khatib was siao. so blardy long. and that stupid SLE bridge nearly caused our team to be injured. luckily our gers had powerful brakes. :P anywayz, chiong back oso lor. somehow i felt a damn strong momentum, stg i nvr felt b4. i think its coz it was during the nite. no sun, no heat. but jappy fell near yishun. it was dark and we decided to continue to yishun first. reached there. so his abrasions and deep cuts bleeding like dunno wat. realli scared the hell outta us. we tot betta stop and call cheeks to send safety vehicle over. so we waited 30min... momentum all gone. aches all setting in. not fatigue, coz i din feel sleepy or tired yet. when Ms Tang finally came, they took over Jappy and we started jogging again.

it was damn biah. momentum partially came back and we got to khatib quite fast. khatib back to YCK was damn siao. i dunno how the hell we managed to finish khatib to YCK with onli 1 break and a bit of walking. its like a whole 6km with 5km within a LENTOR AVE. sickening! by the time reach YCK was half dead liao. YCK to AMK was the worst la. no energy. stitches acting up badly and cramps near surfacing, if not for constant stretches and my chao gd deep heat. AMK back to RI chionged!!!!!!! thanks to the 2 chioest hougang cheerleaders zach and i have ever seen and long ge's chao gd perserverance, AMK to RI was chiong and chiong and chiong! we clocked a final time of 3hr5min!!! average of 9.5km/hr! yeah!

change out le went to play bridge in classroom. now come back home slept like dunno wat.

this mock AQ was very gd. showed the gd bonding and spirit of our team, the ability of biahing, and that we are quite prepared for AQ. to me, it was a great confidence boost.

now for MUGGING AGAIN!!!! bleah... XD
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spot the hidden message on the title of my entry if u can! mwahaha! anyway, tests are OVER!!! ova ova ova ova ova ova ova ova ova!!!!!!!!!! YEAH! i'm happy, so happy, so damn happy, so damn freakin happy, so damn freaking $*(#@*(&*#@&(@#*# HAPPY!!! wahaha! life with 5 day work week sux kay... balancing bagpipe, piano grade 8 prac, AQ, BB parades, sch work, family life... wah carningly sianz... (not aq, but sch life) now got French Controle and camp and AQ COMING UP!!! *PULLS HAIR* ARGH!

anywayz, now u noe the reason y i hardly blogged la... but now i feel so happy... so happy i betta go sleep earli tonite. tml got OVERNITE MOCK AQ. 11pm start. 15km cycling to SEMBAWANG MRT. den 15km JOG back to RI. biah biah biah. i still dun understand y i'm in the running team, but biah biah biah. :P

life rox, and is sian. forgeddit. thy shalt blog till this very point onli. till after mock AQ...
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training is xiong manz.... monday 7.5km with load + sets, some rest time b4 MOCK AQ, mind u, 15km WITH LOAD and 15km biking and all the stuff... to tell the truth, i feel totally drained of energy. I feel lyk i can juz plonk anywhere and fall asleep for hours and hours and hours... wat's making me realli perservere on is the fact that i wanna realli attain glory for 60th. to go out there, to fight, to endure, to bond, to biah, to WIN.

Joshua realli made the point clear to us again. AQ is not abt me or u. its about US. its not abt our physical ability, but if when at that point of total physical destruction, are we able to encourage each other to take that one more step further and endure everything. its not abt whether we win, but whether we know we've done it gloriously. its not abt relay team 1,2,3, boys or reserves, its about 60th.

i'm not sure if i can do it, if i can make it. wat i'm sure is i'm gonna put in all the effort i can, to make my pride of 60th known to everyone. i'm gonna do my part to make sure that everyone in the team makes the effort to overcome all mental barriers. yes, we will fall, but we will stand up and continue. we will fall, but we aint gonna cry and sit there like spoilt brats. we will fall, but we will learn. we will fall, but we will continue and MAKE IT! ALL HAIL 60th AQ TEAM 2005!!!
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amidst my ever-tight schedule, i'm juz typing this post out of total frustration. EVERY single team beat my team for the 15km run. and we're supposed to be the biahing team. WTH!!! 2hr10min. ppl clock 1hr50! why the hell muz my chest become damn pain? y the hell muz i cramp? y the hell muz my body give up at times? WHY WHY WHY?!!! ARGH! we're the onli team which took over 2hrs! &(#*#&@&*#&(*(!!! i tot we put in lotsa effort, but it seems like we're just not up to it yet. 2hr 10min w/o load, and we gotta do 2hr with load! 1mth to AQ. Can't let the training all go down the drain! this is shyt... i'm gonna biah and biah and biah... shyt... feeling damn pathetic and useless rite now... i know that as a team leader, i gotta be brave about it and put a strong front to encourage the team to raise team spirit, but somehow inside, i feel weak and useless... never mind... 1 gd nite's sleep will help me a lot...

Still, thanx to my whole group and the trainers, esp Cheeks for the help rendered to me... THANX A LOT!

btw, muggerism is an ethic which is forced into every one of us. i have no choice but to mug like siao for tests. will post stuff soon. Thanx guys fr ur support!
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