Thursday, January 25, 2007
@ 12:30 AM
crap la, sry i wanna angst a lil now so i wun bother to type in french. esp since its like 12.31am now and blogging in french would make me more frustrated...
the last thing u wanna do when u come home at 8+pm on a long tiring crappy day and get suaned at by ur parents. they freaking dont support me, dont trust me and all!
when i use the comp they think i'm wat, listening to mr brown, SURFING PORN LIKE WTH, and using msn means i'm talking cock? wth man!
and then wat, I WAS ON THE FONE DOING AQ STUFF WITH LONGKUAN FOR 2.5hours and they think i'm chatting with a GIRL FOR FUN?! "why u always say u no time to do hw?"
I'M IN RI, I'M IN RJC, I'VE OBTAINED LIKE UPTEEN SCHOLARSHIPS TO FILL A BANK AND RESUME AND TESTIMONIAL.
GIMME A LIFE!!!! do i have to spend 100% of my time studying?! AM I NOT ALREADY PUTTING IN MY 2000% EFFORT AS ALL MY FRENS CAN WITNESS?! DO I HAVE TO STLIL COME HOME AND GET THIS SORT OF TREATMENT?! dammit man dammit!!!
and then i go to school. CCA. my official CCA is BB. yet i'm being subtly forced to retreat and wat not cos if nt all my batchmates all wun come to contribute to BB?
in the first place they all are.
secondly no one minds me doing it cos i'm free and its my responsibiltiy cos its my cca
thirdly i wanna give back and impact the guys and my frens as much as i've been impacted.
now which part of this says "u shd do less" and that "u want recognition?"
i'm not at breaking point. YET. wth its week 4 onli. i have how many more days, weeks, months, maybe 2 yrs...
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