Wednesday, February 28, 2007
@ 10:52 PM
sigh... i realli feel like letting go this secret. its difficult to keep it within me, having only longkuan knowing. yet rite from the start i knew i had to keep it, to guard it, for months, perhaps years... pain ah pain... i wanna say so much, but i cant say anything...
and i'm realli sorry i broke down today... i shdn't have done it. sigh i vented my anger on ppl i should be thanking for being there for me, for being there for 60th? wth was i doing man? =S
tml got 2 major tests. and i dun feel prepared, no matter how much i studied. freak la...
spent 1 hr juz now typing AQ stuff non-stop. but got a lot of admin and queries settled. i think next year... gotta start planning AQ in oct, straight after promos...
i'm sick. down with a bad cold... sian...
i so envy others... ohwell....
this blog is turning into some emo angst journal eh? others blogs when angsting sometimes oso put smiley face de la... all i can put is:
='(
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Monday, February 26, 2007
@ 8:49 PM
Wow. $27 stolen from my wallet. GGXX. spoil my entire day after having fun taking e upper sec for drill. sheesh. drill was kinda fun. popping sweets into their mouth, trying to veer them into spaces. quite fun leh! and all the stupid funny stuff we'd do. hope they enjoyed it too... i think we need to start impacting the sec2s too...
oh ya. did i mention i absolutely detest politics? its... disgusting.
played tennis with xm! so fun! one moment blazing hot one moment rain coming... ki siao! haha my life in RJC is weird. i realli LOVE going to sch to meet my classmates and have fun, but i irk at the tot of all the workload... luckily ah boon and dr fang rock! =)
je te manque...
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Thursday, February 22, 2007
@ 11:25 PM
i'm feeling so... helpless and lost. yea its another breaking point. i've been fully into BB these 2 days and havent touched my work at all. trying to pull AQ together, trying to pull my frens together and at the same time, trying to put myself together. i shouldnt be blogging esp when i havent started on my pile of hw, but i realli tabuleh tahan. i need to vent. I'M SO STRESSED AND SO TIRED... ='(
yes its true work helps to forget abt
you, but all the more i wish
you were here. i so wish that you were here to comfort me, to help me and push me along. juz one smile. juz one sms.
then again, its wishful thinking.
i smile. but deep inside me, i'm breaking... breaking in front of everyone.
pourquoi... pourquoi moi? il me rend fou de penser à toi...
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Monday, February 19, 2007
@ 2:04 PM
这个世界唯一的你
是我拥有的奇迹
对我说的一字一句
都是我们的秘密紧紧
拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就是世界与我为敌
我也愿意 我什么都愿意
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Saturday, February 17, 2007
@ 4:13 PM
now for blogging abt today... had nightmares, couldnt sleep. i think onli 2 ppl know why, and i intend to keep it that way.
been feeling emo the whole day... no reunion dinner with my cousins tonite, and yea. that.
its been 1+ years? how long more can i keep this up? its painful, its torture. yet all i can do is smile. its painful, yet beautiful.
i've got this analogy:
busindre reel/ huang hun are my top fav songs (both of these songs always make me feel better when i'm down)
every now and then, nice, beautiful songs come and take them away from the "top of the charts"
but at the end of the day, its still busindre reel and huang hun. no doubt.
~~
ohwell, wtv it is, i'll be there. just say my name, and i'll be there.
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@ 1:39 PM
yesterday was amazing race. haha jean was hurrying me and all BUT I GOT THERE ON TIME! i was there in TEN MINUTES. fr home to botanic gardens. see i'm fast rite. haha! amazing race was... DIAO. we ran until no breath la, then here +30min there +30min in e end we gave up and decided to bond while taking long strolls. and we found that more fun! siti royce jean and me talk, sing song, have fun. i like! =)
then went prata house, then went home alone..
going out tt time, i wanted to take bus 106 cos it was raining. i missed the bus. nvm, 10min later one will come rite? WRONG.
i waited for TWENTY-FIVE MINUTES. in e end a 105 came and i boarded it. later, i turned around and saw 106. i'm ROYALLY PISSED AT SMRT.
changed to mrt and got to city hall to meet sheila. i made it at 5.45. very 'early' -.- toopid smrt
anyway, it was real fun! bought all the stuff we wanted, and SAW FIREWORKS!
and most of all, we caught up. =)
takkaire sheila! dun always become sick de... =S (u can read this when ur internet is up again)
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Tuesday, February 13, 2007
@ 9:48 PM
Should i try running for council? i have no idea... i need some advice gee =S
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Monday, February 12, 2007
@ 8:25 PM
this morning. go OG. celebrate birthday. get call. look at phone. "MS TANG". 0.O?
"hey, mr hodge called mr mag to call me to engage u. prominent rafflesian's mother passed away. needs bagpipe"
wah sei... call me in e afternn and i need to do the service by 3pm? PANIC.
2minutes b4 morning assembly starts : "call"
"hello?"
"Hi. is this yong qian? I'm Mr Hodge"
"(?!!!!) yes sir?"
"Wait, how do you know I'm mr Hodge?"
"er dunno sir"
"nvm i need u to come to my office now"
"(WAT? before morning assembly?!) yes sir"
"no i dun mean now. i mean after morning assembly"
"yes sir!"
'k cya. bye"
WTH. *breaks into cold sweat*
i enter mr hodge's room later, a 2M tall imposing figure twice my size. he STANDS UP and offers me to sit down. i'm shaking liao la....
but anyway yea, i was engaged to pipe. the whole GP lesson (mrs singh wasnt here) ppl tot i was possessed cos i was trying to slow march and figure out wat tunes to play... panic!
calls longkuan. no answer. sms longkuan. no answer.
basically the whole day i was running around, panicking, trying to get everything settled.
but everything went well in e end! the family was nice, the piping went well, everyone was happy. THANK GOD! =)
and drill went, okie i guess. their uniform was disappointing =S a lot in improper la sigh! =(
fun fun fun goig home with sam soh and bing long talking cock very fun! xD
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@ 12:46 AM
whee i feel so happy today! i studied quite a bit, exercised, had a good meal, DIN NAP AT ALL, had a good chat with my cousins (over msn)...
yay! =)
vday is coming. but its not special yet. i hope one day it will be. one day...
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Friday, February 09, 2007
@ 9:34 PM
wah biangz... seriously... i'm gonna frame up my HMT results to REMIND myself NEVER to get this kinda result again. NEVER.
wth? shit la =(
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Monday, February 05, 2007
@ 8:36 PM
haha today started off like CRAP. i mean, i'm half-asleep (as always) and i'm told i'm not in the MPS program. i'm like... "WAT?!" wah sheesh it made my day man. i somehow felt this whole sense of insecurity and all, and this feeling of rejection and failure...
it extended all e way into BB. seeing a poor fall-in din make my day any better. but somehow, during singspiration, i juz felt the sudden strength and the power from God. the songs sung were very powerful. and added with the tinge of nostalgia too. i juz suddenly tot of chee keen. the way he led singspiration, with all the passion, the love and the fun. and then i got inspired. and went to teach drill. at the end of it, i muz say i've nvr heard such good company drill in ages. =) its not realli perfect, but its a realli great improvement! yay!
ohwell, now to do... hw. biangz.
oh ya, biang in chinese is the MOST complicated word in the chinese language. omg i see liao i faint. =S
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