Wednesday, November 24, 2004
sighz and laughters... @ 5:21 PM
haha... AQ's officially ON!!! YEAH! i think this yr's training is much more effective and all-rounded. Thanx Cheeks and gang for all e hard effort y'all have put in to get this started! I muz admit i was veri unconditioned but the gd thing abt me is i cant biah a lot but i can perservere for quite long. (Correct anot ah? haha) And todae, broke my pull-up record again! to 6! hmm... i have to verify this record, coz i was kicking around a lot... :p
Now to the philo part of my blog... Everytime after playing soccer, on the way home, i always have to reflect on my actions. I dunno , but i'm juz so sparky... always regret wat i do later, but cant control myself at the moment... dammit... like todae... i dunno y i juz suddenly burst... and in repetitions too... like a shotgun gone berserk. wat in me triggered this??? fatiuge? stress? i have simply no idea... i seemed more like Godzilla den Gorilla... kaboom! KY. Kaboom! KKW. Kaboom! Marvin... wth... Come to think of it, i'm veh weird. i can be totally cool with everyone else except the person i'm pissed at... (izzit weird???) i dunno if my rationale for being pissed is justified, but sometimes i juz cant take it... let me analyze my reasons for being pissed at each person todae...
1) When rushing for the ball, KY pulled my hand and jerked me onto the floor... got bashed real badly...
2) KKW kept calling me and others suckers and gd for nth, onli to miss all the shots WIDE himself
1+2) sarcasm and suaning towards me
3)got the ball as goalie, he kept kicking the ball (and me, obviously), damn pain
lets see... izzit justified? i think it is, BUT, if ppl, esp Cheeks can take a bad bruise and scratch in his pride, in optimism, WHY CANT I? It sounds weird, but i feel guilty to be angry, which i think is rite... i think i destroyed a veh gd soccer match todae... but if i bottle it up, i noe i'll let it off in a chao dua explosion dat can seriously harm... And i cant always control my temperement. fatigue and stress are the factors to it i think... haiz... i dunno how to end of this entry, coz i've got no conclusion and solution for myself. Neither have i any ways of conquering it... i juz pray and hope it doesnt get overboard, or its gonna harm my life, perhaps others, in 1 way or another...
he left a mark
