Friday, March 04, 2005
@ 11:18 PM
amidst my ever-tight schedule, i'm juz typing this post out of total frustration. EVERY single team beat my team for the 15km run. and we're supposed to be the biahing team. WTH!!! 2hr10min. ppl clock 1hr50! why the hell muz my chest become damn pain? y the hell muz i cramp? y the hell muz my body give up at times? WHY WHY WHY?!!! ARGH! we're the onli team which took over 2hrs! &(#*#&@&*#&(*(!!! i tot we put in lotsa effort, but it seems like we're just not up to it yet. 2hr 10min w/o load, and we gotta do 2hr with load! 1mth to AQ. Can't let the training all go down the drain! this is shyt... i'm gonna biah and biah and biah... shyt... feeling damn pathetic and useless rite now... i know that as a team leader, i gotta be brave about it and put a strong front to encourage the team to raise team spirit, but somehow inside, i feel weak and useless... never mind... 1 gd nite's sleep will help me a lot...
Still, thanx to my whole group and the trainers, esp Cheeks for the help rendered to me... THANX A LOT!
btw, muggerism is an ethic which is forced into every one of us. i have no choice but to mug like siao for tests. will post stuff soon. Thanx guys fr ur support!
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