Wednesday, September 28, 2005
paradise... @ 11:29 PM
its funny how old, seemingly forgotten memories can juz flood back to u in an instant. i remember composing a song 1 or 2mths back. then i totally forgot e tune, and came up with a new one. juz now, the melody of my original idea juz came back! its juz a miracle. Get me my Creative Prodikeys! i wanna start recording my own songs! =D Of course, there's the usual bedtime fantasies. (dun think in a warped fashion). i mean, like suddenly i'll picture myself somewhere around the Fullerton area, driving a BMW M6 Convertible or stg similiar with that ger beside me (perhaps still wrapped in shadows... je ne sais pas encore), some beautiful easy listening/instrumental chill out music on, juz enjoying the warm yellow lightings of the area, the cool breeze, the metropolitan serenity... you'll juz sway into the mood... park the car somewhere facing e sea, get a few bits of chocolates and juz enjoy the warmth and romance...
or perhaps something like the cool mountainside feeling. when you wake up, open e windows, there'd be a beautiful scenery of mountains, lakes and lush greenery surrounding you. walk to e kitchen and make yourself a delicious American breakfast, perhaps some toast, bacon, eggs and sausages. yumm! definately, cook an extra portion for your dear. =P walk out to the lush garden with occasional flowers here and there. it'll give u so much inspiration to let your artistic creativity pour outta ya. i can juz get into my bagpiping mood easily. and the music of the bagpipe suits e mountainside! the drones, the loud, wide sound of e pipes. ahhh... or play a easy listening piano piece, kevin kern like. or maybe make a little attempt to sketch the surroundings. lie on the floor, enjoy the beauty of nature. den when you feel like it, change out and take a swim in the lake. cool clear water. listen to the ripples of the water. such a therapeautic effect...
the latter cant be found in singapore.... i had a taste of it in Victoria state, at the Halls Gap Inn facing the fold mountains. but i believe Europe'd have this best. somewhere out in e Scandanavian countries, or Italy, or France. I realli wanna go there and explore, away from all the daily routines, away from the responsibilites. jus go out there and discover that part of you. that part suppressed by all the daily monotonous routines. i wanna go out there, with you, to enjoy this part of life that we deem as paradise... to find it, to embrace it, to indulge in it... i wanna...
writing this post realli made me feel good... its juz perhaps, a more accurate description of how i feel, wat i love, wat i desire... feels good to be able to express it out nicely... ahh... feels so good! esp when i'm writing this in my study room, with my dimmer yellow light on, stimulating the scenery. the house's quiet, giving me totally serenity to write this post... sometimes, maybe life aint kewl after all. life's full of warmth, full of love, full of beauty. if u go out to seek for it. i dun feel high now, but a sense of calmness and total relaxation inside me. something i havent realli felt for quite some time. maybe its due to e late nights mugging or such, rendering me unable to have some time for calmness to let my emotions and imagination run free and wild... ahh... paradise... je t'aime! ((((((((=
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