Saturday, October 22, 2005
@ 9:05 PM
after watching Taxi 2 and laughin my arse out, i think i've gotten some seemingly stupid but sensible knowledge. It was proven when i played NFSU2. when u're going at stg too fast to slow down, and there's a danger of knocking into stg, juz chiong. chiong ahead, push harder, add the nitro-oxides, pump in the turbo, and go full speed ahead. sometimes, being too cautious will juz make u crash. and crash HEAVILY...
argh... the reason y i've been blogging entry after entry these few days is cos i need to get rid of some burden in my heart. something deep down inside, i dunno wat. lan, blogging doesnt help. wat i think i realli need is a walk. a walk with a realli close fren, to juz pour out my burdens, pour out everything, have a nice talk, and juz walk. something like wat i did during the heritage trail. walk and walk and walk. admire the scenery, laugh and make jokes, talk, juz enjoy the company of a very good fren. yes, that's wat i need. and perhaps add some speed thing into it, like er, take a open-top bus? now i know y ppl love convertibles. the strong wind juz blowing into ur face, maybe u can shout a lil. feels great. i wanna do it, yet i've got no time. or is it i dun feel like going. yea. that's it. i dun feel like going. who the hell in the correct frame of mind would wanna go for a walk? who'd wanna spare the time? who has the time? i've tried asking my dad. he hasnt taken leave during holidays for the past 2 major hols so that we can have porridge in chinatown before WALKING to funan to buy games. during these times, its not the porridge or the games i treasure most, but the walk. the walk when my dad and i would juz talk and reminisence every single memory we had. like he'd point out at one restaurant and say "hey, this is where we had ur 1yr old dinner celebration" or i'd say "hey dad, remember this place? we bought the furniture here for our new house! and i played cards with the boss' son, and...." juz so beautiful. gosh... i seem to be in azkaban. so much of happiness seems to be seeped outta me. all i'm trying to revive it with is material stuff. my mp3, my dad's new car, yada yada. doesnt work. doesnt work. worse still, BB life isnt how it used to be. no more soccer matches after parades, no more lunches together, no more fun activities outside parade. its getting too routinal. worse still, my grades are suffering. man... i dun like to go out alone...
come to think of it, i cant wait for the christmas season to start! then orchard will light up and bustle at nite! i love night life at orchard during christmas season. then amidst all of the big crowd, juz enjoying the lights, enjoying the ppl, enjoying the spirit. shop at centrepoint or taka, have supper... nope, no more of this nowadays. my family doesnt do this anymore. no fren can stay out that late to shop. nopez, all gone. all's left of me this "holiday" is planning planning planning. if nt, home blogging blogging blogging, NFSU2NFSU2NFSU2.
DAMMIT!!! *puts head down on the table and shakes head... =(*
he left a mark
