Saturday, January 21, 2006
@ 10:27 PM
this wk has been quite stressful bahz i guess? its like nowadays i'm always tellin myself i shd mug, but in the end i like end up like doing nth or nth constructive... i wanna revise my chinese, my bio, my physics, my math, do my history assignment, read up on my philo on political systems, improve my french and chinese.... ..... ...... but everytime i try to start, i'm distracted AND too tired at e same time. i juz feel that i need a break cos i feel so drained out so often. its like wth? I'M SUPPOSED TO BE MUGGING DAMMIT!!! WANNA SCREW UP MY ACADEMICS IS IT?! *bangs head against the wall* but then i still don't. i'm switching on the comp to be starting on my history assignment (i know its due on wk 7 but i shd start writing it now rite?) hmmm.... lemme plan a to-do list:
tonight:
finish math circular measure hw (and revise for my math test)
read up on plato's aristocracy (and highlight impt pts for presentation)
read history notes (and take down impt points)
tml:
mug for bio lab assignment (nervous system. i shd study myself man. nervous...)
mug for physics quiz (wah lau, i dunno how to mug for kinetic particle theory larh.... and boile's law)
start on history essay
plato's aristocracy... (if i nvr do tonight cos its like nearly 11pm liao)
start practicing for Chingay parade performance
moday:
SCHOOL... can mug ah? i'll try larh...
practice
SURE GOT BAND MATTERS TO SETTLE... *FAINTS*
bleah... i realli muz learn from Sheila larh... she's working so hard now for her Os. i seem to have lost muggerism in all senses... feels crap larh... i'm realli worried... why is it so difficult for me to concentrate and do work nowadays? i seem to have lost the ability to think properly.. its like... laziness? fatigue? juz wanna do BB stuff? or wat? bleah... stress? are we stress cos there's realli alot to do or are we stressed cos there's juz a bit to do but we dun even bother to do and in e end cant get that lil bit done? >.<
oh yea. i always read emails saying "if you love the person, nvr hesitate to tell the person ur feelings." and illustrated with a story... budden my past experiences have stated otherwise... u tell e person u like her, and then u kena tortured. isnt it better to keep to urself? u tell e person in e HOPE, utter HOPE, that she'll like u and got happy ending. budden its always opposite. u tell e girl u like her, she gets shock, the barrier comes, she doesnt like u, so in e end it becomes worse. isnt it better not to tell and then juz like her from inside u, so she treats u as a good fren and stuff gets on as normal? but den again wat if she likes u? onli telling her will u find out? but den again, for some of us guys, we're e kind who'll nvr be liked. or we'll be liked, but we're kind of destined to hv onli 1 way loves. sucks man. SUCKS.
i've been repeating my blog song on my media player for 40min now. 5min per time. that's 8times. bloody hell i feel so sucky now... tho i juz had a fun day with the excons! and yesterday's kenny G juz rocked like mad! i mean, he interacted with his audience damn well! started by walking from the back, so we can all get close to him and take photos. he realli knows how to spread the love of music larh! and his songs, all like as old as me, got modified and turned into such beautiful music! got the rocky feeeling, made me groove all the way! if onli i could dance. its so marvellous! his band ppl oso veh pro! the drummer, the bass, the pianist, the guitarist, the precussionist! all rock! the effects were good too! juz absolutely enjoyed it, was the relaxation i needed. felt so "AHH"... juz as if i were back at east coast park... how i miss last night... if only i could turn back time... :'(
i havent changed my blog title and stuff cos i realli aint got time to... cant remember how i changed it anyway. -_-"
now to start on my to-do list. GOGOGO... *slumps into chair*
wat a life.
he left a mark
