reaching for the stars

Sunday, April 22, 2007

@ 11:10 PM

wahaha finally i can blog. sometimes can sometimes cant. most of e time when i REALLY want to i cant. but since i can i might as well blog rite? (i shd be mugging!)

saturday was feel good, and feel weird day. i dunno. in a sense i led cell group discussions with these 3 strong questions that i wanna share with everyone.

"How do I know what God wants?"
- pray about it, read God's word. juz like if you don't interact with your fren, how would u know what he wants?

"How do i surrender to God?"
- you know God's way, and sometimes its in conflict with your way. u gotta give up yors to follow God's. He knows wat's best for you. Trust your Friend.

"How do i know when i've surrendered to God?"
- when u do something tt's not in a sense, your will, but, u feel AT PEACE.

yayyy. i felt so good. and the message for this week was very strong. pastor eric taught abt how to act upon what you know. and a lot of stuff. i could juz apply it to my life. so nice!

i wish the road to the mrt was longer. then i can talk more with sheila and michelle or other peeps and catch up with em after church.

ahhh

for the first time in... since AQ planning or sth i stayed up till 2+am? i bet sharyn fell asleep in church. havent asked if i won the bet. but i think i'll win. ;)

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today: wah sei. feast sia.

i went to orchard to meet my family for lunch. see chio bu in popular! wah sei.

then i go for lunch.

wat did i eat?

steak, chawan mushi, tempura (prawn and chicken), eel, agadeshi tofu, sashimi (prawn, squid, salmon, swordfish) and topped up with a 3 scoop ice cream! all served by a VERY CUTE AND CHIO WAITRESS.

omg... (okie pardon me i juz needed to be a lil crazy today)

i still cant believe i ate so much for lunch.

went home slept, then went for a refreshing jog! nice weather, nice music, nice feeling. jog. ahhh...

and i made a lot of fantasies. (dun think sick). like champions for pipes and drums, etc etc...

ms tang called juz now. and i think, for e first time in my life, i realli understood her and understand "the big picture".

i realli find, as longkuan said, this week a week of revelations. i feel changed, transformed. i hope it realli does amount to something.

here's a song by Geoff Bullock. "Just let me say". beautiful song. the lyrics, ah the lyrics. sang in church yesterday.

Just let me say how much I love You
Let me speak of Your mercy and grace
Just let me live in the shadow of Your beauty
Let me see You face to face
And the earth will shake as Your Word goes forth
And the heavens can tremble and fall
But let me say how much I love You
O my Savior, my Lord and friend

Just let me hear Your finest whispers
As You gently call my name
And let me see Your power and Your glory
Let me feel Your Spirit's flame
Let me find You in the desert
'Til this sand is holy ground
And I am found completely surrendered
To You, my Lord and friend

So let me say how much I love You
With all my heart I long for You
For I am caught in this passion of knowing
This endless love I've found in You
And the depth of grace, the forgiveness found
To be called a child of God
Just makes me say how much I love You
O my Savior, my Lord and friend
Just makes me say how much I love You
O my Savior, my Lord and friend

Dear Father Lord,

I just want to tell you that i love You. for 3 years i've been missing the point. its always been about what You can do for me. now i wanna think about what i can do for You! Dear Father Lord i really pray for Your hand upon me as I discover more about You, and slowly transform my life into a more Godly life, a life to PRAISE YOU, TO HONOUR YOU, TO SURRENDER MY LIFE TO YOU LORD. I pray for strength as i embark on this journey of transformation, of revelation, of maturity, of leading a purpose driven life Lord. I thank you Lord for all you have given me and where you've brought me to. I thank you Lord for all my friends around me who have supported me, to help me and to guide me Lord. I thank you Lord! In Jesus' name i pray, AMEN.

=)

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